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Album: Fireflies and SongsReleased: 2009
In this song Groves sings about her battles with onstage anxiety attacks. She told Christianity Today magazine: "I was not a member of the club until a year and a half ago, and I don't say that lightly. My mom has talked to me about her experiences with anxiety, and honestly, my thoughts back to her would be, 'Well, get over it. It's not true. When your thoughts go haywire and your body is having this fear response, just tell yourself it's not true.' Until one day I was playing at a prayer breakfast - something very benign, not a big deal. My body had a full fear response to something that wasn't there. I was in the middle of a song, and it was as if a bear had walked in the room in the middle of my song. I called my best friend who is a counselor, and I said, 'What just happened to me?' and she was like, 'You just read the textbook for an anxiety attack.' It doesn't happen every time I get on stage, but it is limited to the stage. I feel like there's a spiritual, emotional, physical element to it, but it's definitely changed my emotional landscape the last year and a half. I'm still in it, but I'm making progress. I really, really believe that God wants me to be weak. He wants to be strong in my weakness. And he's teaching me that when I get on the other side of this, I'm going to be a stronger person. But it is not fun. It's not pleasant. It feels absolutely terrible."