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Album: L.D. 50Released: 2000
Mudvayne lead singer Chad "Kud" Gray told MTV about this track: "The song is basically about being OK to die. You have to have a sense of self-fulfillment before you're actually able to go to the other side and be prepared for it. Everything we write about is a process of being human, so this is just one more thing."
Chad Gray's lyrics on this song were inspired by his grandmother, Betty Rae, and how she was neglected by her family because she was getting on in years. She had a profound influence on Chad's life; she raised Chad and used to bring him to the local choir where he learned to sing.
Betty Rae died in 2005 having battled cancer for several years. "My grandma was like my angel, she was everything to me," Gray said in our 2015 interview
Thomas Mignone, who also did the Mudvayne clip for "Dig
," directed the video. Many of the scenes were shot at the abandoned Sea View Hospital in Staten Island, which is were some of creepier scenes from the 1990 movie Jacob's Ladder
The video juxtaposes the cold, barren institutional setting where many people die with the beach, which is connected to nature. The concept of the video is death ultimately fulfilling life.