Going Through Changes

Album: Recovery (2010)
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  • I'm going through changes
    I'm going through changes

    Lately, I really feel like I'm rollin' for delf like Philly
    Feel like I'm losing control of myself
    I sincerely apologize if all that I sound like
    Is I'm complainin', but life keeps on complicatin' and
    I'm debatin' on leavin' this world this evenin'
    Even my girls can see I'm grievin'
    I try and hide it but I can't
    Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty
    When inside I'm dyin'? I am finally realizin' I need
    Help, can't do it myself, too weak
    Two weeks, I've been havin' ups and downs
    Goin' through peaks and valleys
    Dilly-dallyin' 'round with the idea
    Of endin' this shit right here
    I'm hatin' my reflection
    I walk around the house tryna fight mirrors
    I can't stand what I look like, yeah
    I look fat, but what do I care? I give a fuck
    Only thing I fear's Hailie
    I'm afraid if I close my eyes
    That I might see her, shit

    I'm going through changes
    I'm going through changes

    I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon
    Yeah, dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you
    Marshall, what happened that you can't stop with these pills?
    And you've fallen off with your skills and your own fans are laughin' at you
    It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle? Get up
    Be a man, stand, a real man woulda had this shit handled
    Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
    They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust
    Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that
    He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at nobody, he'd fight first
    But dwellin' on it only makes the night worse
    Now I'm poppin' Vics, Percs and Methadone pills
    "Yeah, Em, tight verse, you killed it"
    Fuckin' drug dealers hangin' 'round me like yes men
    And they gon' do whatever I says when I says it
    It's in their best interest to protect their investment
    And I just lost my fuckin' best friend, so fuck it, I guess then

    (I'm going through changes)
    Don't know what I'm gonna do (I'm going through changes)
    But I just keep on going through changes

    My friends can't understand this new me, that's understandable
    Man, but think how bananas you'd be, you'd be an animal too
    If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo
    And everybody's lookin' at you, what you want me to do?
    I'm startin' to live like a recluse
    And the truth is, fame's startin' to give me an excuse
    To be at a all-time low, I sit alone in my home theater
    Watchin' the same damn DVD of the first tour
    The last tour he was still alive
    And it hurts so I fast forward, sleeping pills'll make me feel alright
    And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night
    I'll just take a couple more, yeah, you're motherfuckin' right
    I ain't slowin' down for no one, I am almost homeward bound
    Almost in a coma, yeah, homie, come on, dole 'em out
    "Daddy, don't you die on me, Daddy, better hold your ground"
    Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice? Yeah, baby, hold me down (daddy)

    (I'm going through changes)
    (Daddy)
    Don't know what I'm gonna do (I'm going through changes)
    But I just keep on going through changes

    Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes
    But somehow I'm pullin' through
    Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof
    I'ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few facts
    'Cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
    Shit, it just hit me that what if I would not've made it through?
    I think about the things I woulda never got to say to you
    I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do
    Hailie, this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too
    I still love your mother, that'll never change
    Think about her every day
    We just could never get it together, hey
    Wish there was a better way for me to say it
    But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on any day
    There are just too many things to explain, when it rains
    Guess it pours, yes, it does, wish there wasn't any pain
    But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placin' any blame
    I ain't pointin' fingers, Heaven knows I never been a saint
    I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history
    And just today I looked at your picture, almost if to say
    I miss you subconsciously, wish it didn't end this way
    But I just had to get away, don't know why
    I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm

    (I'm going through changes)
    Don't know what I'm gonna do (I'm going through changes)
    But I just keep on going through changes Writer/s: Anthony Frank Iommi, John Michael Osbourne, Marshall B. III Mathers, Terence Michael Butler, William T. Ward
    Publisher: Universal Music Publishing Group
    Lyrics licensed and provided by LyricFind

Comments: 2

  • Star from Hollister, CaThis song is also a glimpse into his grieving process of dealing with the death of his best friend and D12 band mate Proof and the ways he dealt with it including weight gain, isolation, drugs, and suicide attempts.
  • Devin from Santa Cruz, CaThis song is amazing. Eminem has truly recovered. I hope he makes at least one more album
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