Jo Harrop sings this melancholy ballad over a piano-and-string arrangement. She told Songfacts the story behind it:
"'If I Knew' was written during lockdown 2020. A time when the world was in pain, and came to some kind of a standstill, especially for live music. Personally, I was incredibly upset to lose all my live work, and everything that I had worked so hard for, but I have always tried to make the best of each situation that life has thrown at me.
I am a jazz singer who started off as a singer-songwriter, and this was a place I wanted to get back to, but had never quite been able to. I had a lot of books with half-finished ideas scribbled down and in my head, in my heart, I needed to say so much. Several years of losing close loved ones and fractured relationships had filled me with so much emotion, but I never seemed to be able to write down what I wanted to say.
In the stillness of lockdown, I started to reflect. I began to allow myself time to process a lot of stuff. One day somewhere in lockdown, I just wrote down, 'If I knew that would be the last time, I would have held you much closer.'
The rest of the lyrics poured out. It was quite confessional in a way. What would I say to you if I could see you again? In a way, its an apology."