In My Darkest Hour

Album: So Far, So Good... So What? (1988)


  • Dave Mustaine wrote most of this song in just one sitting after learning that bass player Cliff Burton had died in a tour bus accident while traveling with Metallica on their Master of Puppets tour. While he was a member of Metallica from 1981-1983, Mustaine became good friends with Burton; he fondly recalls driving to practice, listening to Lynyrd Skynyrd, and smoking pot with him. Mustaine says that when he heard the news, he headed straight to downtown Los Angeles, where he bought heroin. He began crying, and through the tears came up with "In My Darkest Hour."
  • Burton's death was the inspiration for this song, but the lyrics are not directly about him, as the song is about remaining true to your friends and being there in their time of need. Mustaine didn't get a lot of support from his family, and also felt betrayed by Metallica when they kicked him out of the band.

    Reflecting on the song, Mustaine explained that he treasures his relationship with his fans, who have shown him the kind of support he didn't get as a kid.

    The song doesn't have a happy ending, but many Megadeth fans found it very helpful in getting them through difficult times, since it can be comforting to know that others have been through it.
  • The video was directed by Penelope Spheeris, who would later direct the film Wayne's World. Spheeris used the song in her 1988 documentary The Decline Of Western Civilization Part II: The Metal Years.

Comments: 13

  • Jeemy from UkA song doesn't have to be about *ONE* specific thing. This was written by Dave after Cliff Burton's death and is largely not in response to the actual death, but the fact that he was not called by one person from Metallica or Corinne Lynn, his friend and Cliff's girlfriend. So when his friend died, he was left alone. Probably his fault, but he took the thoughts from the death and wrote the song in one evening. Dave writes for guitar/tempo first and lyrics second, so we are left with a few things that don't make sense - except to 14yo foreveralone kids who would think its about the hot girl in school who friendzoned them for Chad.

    This one is f--k-all to do with Diana. I will add Dave's quote in that when I can find the citation.
  • Jason from Ogden UtahHello from the self proclaimed BBAM ( big bad ass megadetholigist ) Dave wrote this song right after he heard about the bus crash that killed cliff burton. The song is not about cliff persay, but the feelings his death gave Dave inspired the Lyrics. I know this because Iam the BBAM. Plus Dave tells the story in VH1's Megadeth Behind The Music. FYI Dave Mustaine is one of hard rocks best singers/guitarist song writers of all time. Feel free to ask me any Megadeth or Dave Mustaine questions, I have been following Dave for 30 plus years, met the Dude five times....By the way in person Dave is a little stand offish. Wish you the best, Jason. AKA. BBAM
  • Mat from Houston, TxYeah this was written about his former girlfriend, cause why else would it say "Ha-ha...Bitch"
  • Mau from Zacatecas, MexicoActually, the music os for Cliff, but the lyrics are for Dave´s Ex-Girfriend Diana, there is a lot of songs about her.
  • Derek from Flin Flon, Mbthis song is just about being depressed and lonely, it doesn't seem much like a tribute to cliff

    why the hell would a friend say "hold me" to a friend?
  • Cody from Kansas City, MoThe song was about Dave's wife leaving or something. (Maybe it was a girlfried, I don't know)
  • Jesse from Chilliwack, BcPaul, the album name has since been corrected thanks to Don and Curtis pointing out the mistake.
    Amber, Paul is referring to the Dave that submitted the song fact, in my opinion it could be either to do with friends or a relationship, either or it doesn't matter to me because it was written in dedication to a great man, and it is a very good song.
  • Amber from Toledo, OhI love how there is factual evidence almost everywhere...
    on interviews with dave, or bio's ..
    anything thats actual correct info on what EXACTLY this song was suppose to mean, and who it was for..
    yet people STILL try to debate what dave meant by this song..

    hell... whatever dave said it meant..
    then thats what it meant..
    he was the writer after all.
  • Rob from Los Angeles, CaThis song was not about the ending of a relationship. it was dedicated to Cliff Burton.
  • Tom from Chicago, Ilanother classic megadeth tune
  • Paul from California, SdChris and Don, where on this page does it say, that this song is on any other album but So Far, So Good, So What?. I disagree with Dave, however. I think this song is about the ending of a relationship with a girl who didn't much care in the first place. At least, that is what I gather from the lyrics.
  • Curtis from Milledgeville, GaActually, this song was from Megadeth's 1988 album "So Far, So Good, So What?"
  • Don from Toronto, CanadaThe album this song appeard in is wrong.

    It was, "So far, so good, so what."
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