There's Alot Going On

Album: There's Alot Going On (2016)
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  • Yeah, this just my life
    Front to back, top to bottom

    Everything's changing around me
    These days don't feel the same
    We all lost faith and lost family
    Why must we play this game?
    Lord have mercy on me
    I've been a sinnin' man
    Pull out my wings, jump off the bridge and crash in a plane
    If I never land

    Know I never die
    We live forever in my mind
    And I say goodbye
    We live forever, still alive

    There's a lot goin' on but I stick to the ones I love
    I never claimed to be a perfect man but name a great man who was
    Consequences of my actions in the past years had me stressin' out
    It was like, May, I just moved to L.A., I was tryna figure it out
    Medication for depression that I cut cold turkey, had the kid manic
    In an episode out in Hollywood, wildin' out like Nick Cannon
    Railin' Adderall pills out a dollar bill, on the bathroom floor
    Clean the whole mess up with my nose, what the fuck I need a vacuum for?
    New York City on my birthday, June 6th, 2014
    I had that first meeting with Hov, plus I brought out the whole team
    I drank that whole bottle of D'usse Ty Ty gave me that night
    When we left the club after Rap Genius house me and shorty got into a fight
    She came out the room swingin', hit me in the jaw
    I was really tryna fend her off
    But I ended up in the closet with my hands around her neck
    I was trippin', dawg
    Too proud to apologize or empathize, I blamed it all on her
    Sayin' that she hit me first, even though she was the one hurt
    I was really just reflectin' all the hurt that I was feelin' from the band's rejection
    When Kids These Days split, that shit felt like a c-section
    And my infidelity and jealousy with Natalie on top of the amphetamines
    And the ecstasy had me tryna drown face down in the Chesapeake
    The next month I dropped "Down on My Luck" and had Europe goin' nuts
    But I couldn't even appreciate it at the time, I was goin' through too much
    Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the table for my records
    In Ibiza eatin' paella on the roof, tryna choose over breakfast
    Hov wasn't with the biddin' war, but I knew the Roc just felt right
    When I saw Kanye at Wireless, without T-Pain, still a good life
    Felt so close when Mr. Hudson introduced me to him backstage
    He prolly don't even remember that shit like a bitch off Backpage
    But at that stage, I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting cage
    At the same time, I was windin' down a low point in my addict phase
    The Adderall started wearin' off and I went into a deep writer's block
    All over a song that I couldn't finish that I wrote about signin' to the Roc
    Isn't that ironic? I was feelin' so psychotic
    With the whole world excited for me and my idol sayin' I got it
    Shit got bad out in L.A., so I moved back home to my mom's basement
    Linked up with Smoko and Papi Beatz and took it back to basics
    Then I wrote "Rage," that was me screamin' out through the pain
    And "U Mad," addressin' my relationship with Natalie, it was too bad
    The violence and the lies slipped suicide into my mental health
    I did acid in the studio one day and almost killed myself
    As I started to fall apart, certain stars started to align
    Oh Mys came to Chicago in January at the perfect time
    He said Kanye was workin' on an album, and Uzi played him one of our songs
    He was tryna fly me out, nigga, it was goin' down like the Dow Jones
    Pulled up to Westlake, first day I was there, I recorded "Wolves"
    I knew I was the one, like Lyor meetin' with the oracle
    But I had to get a handle 'fore the door was pulled
    Crawled out on SNL
    All the niggas hatin' on me back home lookin' at me like, "FML"
    A lot of people comin' out the wood like, "Let's work," tryna network
    All the pressure makin' my head hurt, the molly wouldn't let the meds work
    At this time it's like Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm still addicted
    Frustrated, writin' shit for Ye, tryna visualize someone else's vision
    Then he laid that verse on "U Mad" and we made the shit the single
    Ye and Hov gettin' into it over me, tryna do a joint venture
    And G.O.O.D. Music still fam, but it's that Roc boy SAVEMONEY life
    Took the bus out on the road for the Traffic tour, did a hundred nights
    Cleaned out my closet, I got rid of all of my demons
    If you learn one thing from my journey, nigga it's don't stop believin'
    When this shit got so suffocatin' I could barely even keep breathin'
    Wrote my wrongs all in this song now I'd like to welcome y'all to my season
    Nigga I'm gone

    Know I never die
    We live forever in my mind
    And I say goodbye
    We live forever, still alive Writer/s: ALEX BAEZ, CARTER LANG, DARIAN JOSHUA GARCIA, VIC MENSAH
    Publisher: Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Ultra Tunes, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
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