The lead track of Alison Sudol's debut album finds the former A Fine Frenzy artist dealing with her grief following a miscarriage. Writing the track was cathartic, but so is singing it. She told Songfacts the story behind the song
and its impact as a performer:
"I wrote that song a few days after [the miscarriage]. I started to write it in the wreckage of it. I considered not putting it on the album because it was so intense. I found reasons that were wrong with it. I think ultimately it was just highly emotional. It's pretty tough to sing live. It seems to resonate with other people. That's why I'm doing this. Especially this album, it's around grief. We don't know how to process grief in the Western world. Whether that grief is the loss of someone that you love. There's so much grief around the environment or the life you could've lived. We calcify those emotions in order to not be bombarded by them all the time. Music is really effective at stirring that. Just the vibrations going through your body are very powerful at dealing with grief. When I sing that, I sing it with the hope that it's going to dislodge something. It certainly does it for me every time. Just vocally, it's quite hard to sing at the end, and the feeling I have afterwards."