Songfacts®:

• Chantal wrote this song on the piano. It's a very personal song to her and she finds it hard to sing live because it's so emotional.
• The song is about Chantal's first love committing suicide and how he's "all around her" now. Speaking with CBC Radio, she said it was a song about him and about "what it felt like to be told something so horrible."
  
  "When I was about 18, the boy I loved as a teenager, he was amazing, he was really an amazing guy," she explained. "Everybody was just kind of in awe of him and he had a lot of phenomenal qualities and, I think, almost too much awesomeness for this world and it ended badly. He had a quick turnaround with, I think, schizophrenia, which led to a psychotic depression. And he found an old antique gun and figured out how to make the thing work and he took his life."
• Chantal refers to "the bomb" as being the phone call she got that announced he killed himself, but she said it could mean other things too, like losing a loved one. >>>

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• Kreviazuk doesn't do drugs, and uses music to get her through the tough times and as a kind of therapy. This song played a huge part in her personal development and her evolution as a songwriter. "I probably was, myself, not mentally well for a good year at least," she said of hearing the news of her friend's suicide. "Certainly it's impacted my whole journey."