My Own Hell

Album: War Is The Answer (2009)
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Songfacts®:

  • This track was originally going to be a bonus song but guitarist Zoltan Bathory explained to Metal Hammer, "it turned out so well – so primal, so stark – that we decided to include it on the album."
  • Producer Kevin Churko encouraged frontman and lyricist Ivan Moody to take a highly personal approach throughout the record, and this song is about his self-destructive nature. Bathory explained to Kerrang!: "He definitely has multiple personalities that cause his life to be surrounded by chaos, and on this song he gives a really deep insight into the way that he is and the way that his mind works."

    Unfortunately, Moody put himself more at risk as the band got more popular over the next few years. His drinking got so band he was nearly kicked out of the band in 2012, and in 2017 he had an episode where he blacked out and paramedics had to revive him. He finally got sober in 2018 after six visits to rehab.

Comments: 1

  • Dylon from Grant, MiILove this song! FFPD kicks ASS i can rly relate to this song. it seems as tho all i do my mind keeps comming back and beating the s--t out of me.
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