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• Lady Gaga went through a traumatic time in the late 2010s: She broke off her engagement to talent agent Christian Carino and was stricken with a condition called fibromyalgia that leaves her in constant chronic pain. Mama Monster has been open about her personal struggles with mental health, which she's battled ever since she was raped at 19. Gaga wrote this song following some dark conversations with Chromatica producer Bloodpop about how she felt about life.
  
  I'm in the hole, I'm falling down, down
  So down, down
  My name isn't Alice
  But I'll keep looking, I'll keep looking for Wonderland
  
  Gaga is comparing her inability to find peace in her life to Lewis Carroll's Alice's Adventures in Wonderland. The 1865 children's novel tells the story of a young girl who falls down a rabbit hole and reaches a world called Wonderland populated by playing cards and talking animals. Gaga explained to Apple Music's Zane Lowe: "It's this weird experience where I'm going, 'I'm not sure I'm going to make it, but I'm going to try.'"
  
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• In a March 2020 interview with Justin Moran of Paper magazine, Gaga explained her Chromatica album is intended to evoke euphoria. "I want to put out a record that forces people to rejoice even in their saddest moments," she shared. "If you're in pain and listening to this music, just know that I know what it's like to be in pain. And I know what it's like to also not let it ruin your life."
  
  This electro-pop production, which is the first proper track on the album, marks the beginning of what Gaga refers to as her, "healing process."
• Gaga wrote the song with BloodPop, Swedish House Mafia member Axwell, and pop songwriter Justin Tranter (Justin Bieber's "Sorry," Selena Gomez's "Good For You").