The Old Me

Album: Broken (2018)
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  • For most of his life, Memphis Fire vocalist Matty Mullins had been carefree and lighthearted, but following a scary experience in a plane caught up in a storm, he suddenly started getting hit by bursts of anxiety and crippling panic attacks. For two years Mullins was enveloped by a deep, dark depression. "The Old Me" finds him talking openly about his mental health issues.

    I don't like who I've become
    A hollow shell of someone
    And I feel like a stranger to myself
    I don't need to start over
    I just need to get back to when
    I didn't wake up to this hell I'm in


    Mullins shared in a statement that this song is about his struggle with his demons. "What feels like a war between good and evil, loathing the person I become mentally when it consumes me, and trying to remember what life was like before I lived with the symptoms," he explained. "Ultimately hoping to one day become that person - 'The Old Me' - again."

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