My Suicide Note

Album: Becoming (2015)
Play Video

Songfacts®:

  • The intro to Stacy Barthe's debut album, Becoming, this song finds her talking candidly about a failed suicide attempt in 2010. She explained to Billboard magazine: "As the song so clearly portrays, it was pills. I was 380 pounds at the time, feeling hopeless and my career wasn't going the way I thought it would. I was running out of money, trying to pay my rent and still pursue my dream. Dealing with all that frustration on top of already low self-esteem sent me spiraling."

    "Suicide was always a recurring thought," Barthe continued. "I used to pretend to pass out to keep from going to school where I was always teased. But music was the one thing people liked me for."

Comments: 1

  • Michael from Winslow ArkansasI know how you feel I feel like I should just end my life because I have been told all my life that I am fat and ugly I think about it every day
see more comments

Editor's Picks

The 10 Bands Most Like Spinal Tap

The 10 Bands Most Like Spinal TapSong Writing

Based on criteria like girlfriend tension, stage mishaps and drummer turnover, these are the 10 bands most like Spinal Tap.

Does Jimmy Page Worship The Devil? A Look at Satanism in Rock

Does Jimmy Page Worship The Devil? A Look at Satanism in RockSong Writing

We ring the Hell's Bells to see what songs and rockers are sincere in their Satanism, and how much of it is an act.

Dan Reed

Dan ReedSongwriter Interviews

Dan cracked the Top 40 with "Ritual," then went to India and spent 2 hours with the Dalai Lama.

La La Brooks of The Crystals

La La Brooks of The CrystalsSong Writing

The lead singer on "Da Doo Ron Ron" and "Then He Kissed Me," La La explains how and why Phil Spector replaced The Crystals with Darlene Love on "He's A Rebel."

Booker T. Jones

Booker T. JonesSongwriter Interviews

The Stax legend on how he cooked up "Green Onions," the first time he and Otis Redding saw hippies, and if he'll ever play a digital organ.

Bryan Adams

Bryan AdamsSongwriter Interviews

What's the deal with "Summer of '69"? Bryan explains what the song is really about, and shares more of his songwriting insights.