4:44

Album: 4:44 (2017)
Charted: 73 35
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  • Do I find it so hard
    When I know in my heart
    I'm letting you down everyday
    Letting you down everyday
    Why do I keep on running away?

    Look, I apologize, often womanize
    Took for my child to be born
    See through a woman's eyes
    Took for these natural twins to believe in miracles
    Took me too long for this song
    I don't deserve you, I harass you out in Paris
    Please come back to Rome, you make it home
    We talked for hours when you were on tour
    Please pick up the phone, pick up the phone
    Said: "Don't embarrass me," instead of "Be mine"
    That was my proposal for us to go steady
    That was your 21st birthday, you mature faster than me
    I wasn't ready, so I apologize
    I've seen the innocence leave your eyes
    I still mourn this death, I apologize for all the stillborns
    'Cause I wasn't present, your body wouldn't accept it
    I apologize to all the woman whom I
    Toyed with you emotions because I was emotionless
    I apologize 'cause at your best you are love
    And because I fall short of what I say I'm all about
    Your eyes leave with the soul that your body once housed
    And you stare blankly into space
    Thinkin' of all the time you wasted it, on all this basic shit
    So I apologize

    I'm never gonna treat you
    I'm never gonna treat you like I should

    I apologize, our love was one for the ages and I contained us
    And all this ratchet shit and we more expansive now
    Meant to cry and die alone in these mansions
    Or sleep with our back turned
    We're supposed to vacay 'til our backs burn
    We're supposed to laugh 'til our hearts stop
    And then we end a space with a dark stop
    And let love light the way
    Like the men before me, I cut off my nose to spite my face
    I never wanted another woman to know
    Something about me that you didn't know
    I promised, I cried, I couldn't hold
    I suck at love, I think I need a do-over
    I will be emotionally available if I invited you over
    I stew over what if you over my shit?

    I'm never gonna treat you
    I'm never gonna treat you like I should

    And if my children knew, I don't even know what I would do
    If they ain't look at me the same
    I would prob'ly die with all the shame
    "You did what with who?"
    What good is a ménage à trois when you have a soulmate?
    "You risked that for Blue?"
    If I wasn't a superhero in your face
    My heart breaks for the day I had to explain my mistakes
    And the mask goes away and Santa Claus is fake
    And you go online and see
    For Blue's tooth, the tooth fairy didn't pay

    I'm never gonna treat you like I should Writer/s: Ernest Dion Wilson, Kanan Howard Keeney, Shawn Carter
    Publisher: BMG Rights Management, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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