Every thought that I repent There's another chip you haven't spent And you're cashing them all in Where do we begin, to get clean again Can we get clean again I walk home alone with you And the mood you're born into Sometimes you let me in And I take it on the chin I can't get clean again I want to know, can we get clean again The God of Wine comes Crashing through the headlights of a car That took you farther than You thought you'd ever want to go We can't get back again We can't get back again She takes a drink and then she waits The alcohol it permeates And soon the cells give way And cancels out the day I can't keep it all together I know, I can't keep it all together And the siren's song that is your madness Holds a truth I can't erase All alone on your face Every glamorous sunrise Throws the planets out of line A star sign out of whack A fraudulent zodiac And the God of Wine Is crouched down in my room You let me down, I said it Now I'm going down And you're not even around And I said no I can't keep it all together I know, I can't keep it all together And there's a memory of a window Looking through I see you Searching for something I could never give you And there's someone who Understands you more than I do A sadness I can't erase All alone on your face
Writer/s: Arion Salazar, Brad Hargreaves, Kevin Cadogan, Stephan Jenkins
Publisher: BMG Rights Management, CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC
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Jeannette Gonzales from San Antonio TxI always thought this song was about a girlfriend or former girlfriend of Stephan’s, however when he was on stage and found out his mother who had Alzheimer’s had just passed away he was very emotional, walking back and forth on stage and said his mother had been through so much in her life. He then proceeded to perform “The God of Wine” which he announced he had written for his Mom. Now that gives me a different prospective on the song. When he was interviewed at an event in Baton Rouge he revealed that his mom was an alcoholic and that when he was growing up they were evicted at least 5 times.
Terri from UsHe said he wrote it for his mother. He spoke about it at the end of a show in Pennsylvania 2018.
Josh from United States Patrick, that description you gave absolutely describes what I recently went through, in every single way. That's why I love this song so much. Its everything I couldn't say about the situation.
Patrick from Pearland, TxI feel like the last three songs on the album (Background, Motorcycle Drive-by, and God of Wine) go hand-in-hand; I think they're about the same girl that Stephan was infatuated with. Read what Douge wrote from Westfield, MA about Motorcycle Drive-By; I agree completely. That said, here is my interpretation of this song~ Knowing they're just friends but deeply longing to be more than that, he walks her home. ...That slight nausea from being uncertain about how things will turn out but at the same time feeling content...there's nowhere else you'd rather be than right there by her side. Saving every detail from each moment as it passes; the way she smiles, the flare of her nostrils just before she inhales, the way the wind moves through her hair, or the hue of the sun as it hits her neck just behind the ear...holding onto every detail just in case it's the last time you'll get to...and fearing that it could be....you're scared and confused "the mood you're born into". It's one of those things where if you get together your love could set the world on fire but if not, it might be too painful to remain friends because the what-ifs and could have beens will eat you up inside every time you see her. So he's walking home with her and he's trying to make a conversation happen but nothing is coming out right. And every carefully constructed sentence that comes out of his mouth just sounds worse than the one before. He's stumbling over his words. You ever feel like apologizing after everything you say...well that's him right now...(Every thought that I repent) And she's not making it any easier by being silent and refusing to push the convo forward. The words she could be saying are like "chips" and she hasn't "spent" any of hers...in fact she's "cashing them all in". She's not even interested in playing the game...completely detached from what he is saying and uninterested. I suspect they had a fight or harsh words earlier and he's trying to fix things and she doesn't even want to work on it. He just wants to get "clean again". So they're walking to her house where "sometimes she lets him in" but he's nervous about this friendship and worrying/wondering will it ever be anything more...if so going in could be a great thing...if not it might just feel so awkward because he likes her so much ans she doesn't reciprocate. But, he doesn't let himself get discouraged about it. He walks her to her door and unfortunately she doesn't let him in...but he "takes it on the chin" and doesn't really seem bothered by it...at least not on the surface. Inside it kills him. ...So now he's driving back home in the car that "took him farther than he thought he'd ever wanna go"...he never intended to be this mixed up inside about this girl. She's aware of the tension between them and so after he leaves she has a drink to take the edge off. He knows they can't go back to being friends now. Not like how it used to be. He goes home and drinks about it and feels like he can't "keep it all together". In the end of the song he realizes that there's someone else out there who understands her madness in a way that he cannot and can thus give her something he cannot. But she's still sad that his feelings destroyed their friendship but now he can't take it back... ~Anyway, that's my take on it...Hope you like it...
Chelle from Hilo, Cai love stephan jenkin's take on science... he brings in so many interesting aspects to his lyrics... i love the dripping sensuality of some of his lyrics... this song to me is about someone who uses alcohol as an escape mechanism... and how he wants to reach out to her so much, but he can't because she's caught up in her own alcoholism...
Adrian from Gettysburg, PaHoly crap, I found another Wilmingtonian on here!