Idontwannabeyouanymore

Album: Don't Smile At Me (2017)
Charted: 96
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  • This song finds Billie Eilish opening up about her innermost self-depreciating thoughts and feelings.

    Hands getting cold
    Losing feeling's getting old
    Was I made from a broken mold?
    Hurt, I can't shake
    We've made every mistake
    Only you know the way that I break


    The teenage singer knows herself far better than anyone else ever will.
  • Eilish told Coup de Main how this song came from inside her head. "It's pretty sad, but it's straight from the brain," she said. "That whole song is completely about talking to yourself, every word is looking at yourself in the mirror."
  • Billie Eilish wrote the song with her brother Finneas O'Connell. Finneas also produced the track.
  • Finneas told Radio.com in a 2020 interview this contains a lyric that he's especially proud of.

    If teardrops could be bottled
    There'd be swimming pools filled by models
    Told a tight dress is what makes you a whore


    Finneas explained: "It's fairly poetic and it's not super conversational, but I like the imagery of the way - especially the way that social media handles self-loathing and self-betterment. I think they're almost synonymous right now. People think hating yourself leads to making yourself better. And I think that's pretty dark because I don't think it's true."

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