Meester wrote this song when she was visiting her family in Florida. "I liked the idea that it sounds happy but it's not," she told Noisey
. "It's how I feel a lot of the time. I show one thing and I'm not feeling that way on the inside—I would say that's the case with a lot of the songs on the record."
"Even the most happy ones, which there aren't a lot of, are totally ironic and sarcastic," Meester continued. "The song is about how I had just moved to LA and was building a house here and was doing it all by myself, for myself. I was really lonely and thought what were these things worth if I wasn't able to share it with somebody and was unhappy or the people in my life aren't true."
"It's the same idea as 'Heartstrings
,'" she added, "where it's got pace and sounds strong, but it's about me reorienting. It's saying, 'I don't need anybody,' but what I'm really saying is, 'Actually I do.'"