Libianca suffers from cyclothymia, a chronic mood disorder causing repetitive periods of depression followed by periods of normal or slightly elevated mood. Sometimes, she can sink into these deep depressions, which even the steady consumption of alcohol cannot counteract.
This song was directly inspired by a low period Libianca went through. "I was just like, I don't know how much of this I can take," she recalled to Rolling Stone
. "It's getting ridiculous. I was really struggling. Depressive symptoms, harmful thoughts, just trying to push myself through."
During this difficult spell, Libianca invited friends over for a Thanksgiving celebration at her home. As the evening progressed, she struggled to enjoy the event. Libianca went to the bathroom to cry and compose herself before returning downstairs. Her friends offered her a shot of Casa, which she accepted, but after taking the shot, she realized that drinking was not helping her current state, and she had been drinking more than usual in recent days. Libianca decided it was best for her to leave the gathering. No one noticed she'd left.
Libianca's friends didn't even notice she was suffering, and that inspired this song.