Who I Was
by NF (featuring Machine Gun Kelly)

Album: Fear (2025)
Charted: 76 62
Play Video

Songfacts®:

  • "Who I Was," NF's collaboration with Machine Gun Kelly for his Fear EP, feels like two men sitting in adjacent therapy chairs, taking turns unpacking their emotional luggage. NF's earlier tracks like "Leave Me Alone" were exercises in self-examination, but "Who I Was" is the moment he invites a guest to help sift through the attic boxes.
  • Built as a conversational exchange, the track finds both artists wrestling with the ghosts of their former selves. MGK enters first, revisiting the death of his father, broken relationships, and a restless spiritual hunger. Raised in a Christian missionary family, MGK once projected a kind of tattooed atheistic bravado, but here he raps about spending decades hiding from God and being welcomed back like a prodigal son.

    NF's verse confronts old patterns of anger, emotional withdrawal, and the childhood wounds he has explored since Therapy Session. But this time he isn't just worried about himself, he's worried about his kids. He admits, with the same bluntness that made "Let You Down" unforgettable, that his greatest fear is passing those unresolved storms down the line.

    What unites MF and MGK is the tug-of-war between the past ("who I was") and the emerging self. Both men recognize that their scars are historical documents they can't shred, but they can, perhaps, reinterpret.
  • Produced by NF, Jeff Sojka, and Aaron Chafin, the track leans heavily on a repeating finger-picked acoustic guitar line that feels like it wandered in from an MGK "My Bloody Valentine (Acoustic))" session and decided to stay. MGK's verse sits on that guitar figure, while NF's sections build outward with piano and atmospheric pads. Compared with his early orchestral bombast, this arrangement is almost minimalist, a reminder that sometimes the quieter songs cut the deepest.

Comments

Be the first to comment...

Editor's Picks

JJ Burnel of The Stranglers

JJ Burnel of The StranglersSongwriter Interviews

JJ talks about The Stranglers' signature sound - keyboard and bass - which isn't your typical strain of punk rock.

Brenda Russell

Brenda RussellSongwriter Interviews

Brenda talks about the inspiration that drove her to write hit songs like "Get Here" and "Piano in the Dark," and why a lack of formal music training can be a songwriter's best asset.

Maria Muldaur

Maria MuldaurSongwriter Interviews

The "Midnight At The Oasis" singer is an Old Time gal. She talks about her jug band beginnings and shares a Dylan story.

Soul Train Stories with Stephen McMillian

Soul Train Stories with Stephen McMillianSong Writing

A Soul Train dancer takes us through a day on the show, and explains what you had to do to get camera time.

Gary Lewis

Gary LewisSongwriter Interviews

Gary Lewis and the Playboys had seven Top 10 hits despite competition from The Beatles. Gary talks about the hits, his famous father, and getting drafted.

Wang Chung Pick The Top Songs Of The '80s

Wang Chung Pick The Top Songs Of The '80sSongwriter Interviews

'80s music ambassadors Wang Chung pick their top tracks of the decade, explaining what makes each one so special.