Through the Ghost

Album: Amaryllis (2012)
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Songfacts®:

  • This haunting song finds Brent Smith looking at himself in the mirror and not recognizing who he sees. Drummer Barry Kerch told Alternative Addiction: "It's about looking through the haze and getting things clear and again it's autobiographical from Brent. He couldn't see things clearly from the haze of booze, pills or whatever but now he's come through all that."
  • A heavily orchestrated song without any normal drums, it was decided that rather than getting Barry Kerch to play the kettle drums the band would sample them. He explained to Alternative Addiction: "I could have done it because I have played them before but it's fairly tough to play timpani. We could have hired someone to play it, but it would have been difficult to keep it in tune and we didn't have the time. We did the same with the upright chimes; it would have taken too long for us to do them and it would've cost too much. We would never have got the correct overtones and there would have been far too many variables."
  • Brent Smith told Artist Direct that when he wrote this autobiographical song, he was talking about a specific day in his life. "I woke up, and I didn't recognize myself anymore," he said "I had really let myself go physically and mentally. I had just hit a very rough place in my life."

    "My girlfriend, who is a huge part of my life, " Smith continued, "picked me up and said something to me that changed everything. She was like, "Listen to me, I love you and I respect you. You have a lot of people around you that love you too, but you are letting yourself go down". The way she put it is was like this - I am a lot more focused, a lot healthier, and a lot more dangerous when I am clear-headed. She basically said, 'It's time for you to get dangerous again. Get your head out of your ass, pick yourself up, get motivated, get healthy, get your life back, and be the man everybody knows you can be.'"

    "'Through the Ghost' was a reflection of that," Smith concluded. "It's like, 'The world will never know you like I do.' It's like talking to yourself in the mirror. Personally, I don't think the world will know me like I know myself because I live with me day in and day out. Psychologically, I go through a lot of things. We're not all perfect, and it's not going to be roses all the time. You have to find a way to balance your life."

Comments: 3

  • Dani from Western MassachusettsSimilar situation here. I woke up one day and I didn't recognize HIM. He had let himself go. I TRIED to set him straight, I TRIED to explain things to him, I told him to open his eyes and take a good look in the mirror. I told him he was losing everything, including me.
    No one knows him like I do, I've seen it too many times over and over. I thought I saw it coming, but I didn't want to believe it.
    I've never expected perfection, but I can't do THIS again and it's going to hurt me to have to walk away and let him find himself. 23 years later, and I'm giving up.
  • Melanie Kilgore from New Canton VaBrent Smith has impacted my life in ways that you wouldn't think possible. My daughter at age 4, used to know every single word to sound of madness and we would listen to that whole album on the way to school every morning and she just screamed out the lyrics and had a blast. My son, at around 6 months old,, had colic, it was a nightmare. Then one night I decided I'd play some Attention Attention, not only to see if It would sooth him as it did me, and no longer than 30 seconds into that song, he was out like a light. And from then on out, I would use that album to calm him down during tantrums. Brent Smith is the hero to me and my babies!
  • Zero from The Abyss, NjKinda reminds me of Disarm by the Smashing Pumpkins.
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