Troye Sivan told Genius
he wrote the song in Sweden during a writing trip in late summer 2019. It was originally about a moment in his personal life where he felt lost. "It's basically a tough conversation with yourself," he explained. "Dude, what are you doing? Why are you here? I need to pack up your s--t and go home to your family because something's not working."
Sivan sat on the song, planning to make a music video and release it late in 2020. Then the coronavirus pandemic blew up and its meaning completely changed to him, becoming a much larger worldview song. "I think everyone is now having to kind of sit with themselves and have those tough conversation," he explained. "With this much time at home, everything is up in the air. Everything is up to be questioned right now, your relationship, your job, your purpose in life, your hobbies, what makes you happy, your family, all this stuff. People are having the time to sit and like think about. So it just rang really true."