Album: Incesticide (1992)
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  • The first woman who ever made Kurt Cobain so nervous that he felt physically ill was Tobi Vail, a founding member of Bikini Kill. Cobain was talking about her and about his queasy experience when he sang the line: "Love you so much, makes me sick."

    Vail and Cobain had a brief relationship in Olympia, Washington in July 1990; they'd met four years earlier while hanging out with the Melvins. By all accounts, Cobain was much more into Vail than Vail was into Cobain. Some friends of the time recall not even being sure the two were actually dating, because of Vail's dismissive attitude.
  • Vail is notable for multiple reasons beyond being the center of this early Nirvana scene. In addition to founding the groundbreaking feminist band Bikini Kill, she also started a magazine titled Jigsaw, which was influential to the growing riot grrl scene in Olympia. Oh, and as for "riot grrl," Vale's also the one who originally concocted the "grr" spelling of the term.

    She plays a part in another key event of the Nirvana mythos. When Kathleen Hanna, another riot grrl figurehead, spray-painted "Kurt smells like Teen Spirit" on Cobain's bedroom wall, she was referring to Vail's deodorant.

    Vail and Cobain didn't last long as an item, but they remained friends after breaking up. Cobain didn't take it well, though. He'd been much more attached to Vail than she was to him, and "Aneurysm" documents the emotion.
  • The song was first recorded on January 1, 1991 with Craig Montgomery producing. The song appeared as the B-side to "Smells Like Teen Spirit."
  • The song was recorded again on November 9, 1991, for Mark Goodier's BBC session that aired November 18. This version was later released on the Incesticide compilation in 1992.

Comments: 36

  • Abby from NoGuys if you researched he like loved tobi so much at the time that he threw up
  • Tc From Chicago from IndianaWhat I think the lyrics mean doesn't matter, but the intro to the song reminds me of Sonic Youth more than any other Nirvana song
  • Ralph from AmericaI think this song is about a really good handjob.
  • Rvm from MeeshaghunSong is brilliantly written, both musically and lyrically. The lyrics take on a duality of meaning: girl he was infatuated with wrapped around crystal-clear reference to drugs. Do the twist = come over and mingle with me / tie around the arm; overdo it and have a fit = have too much fun with each other / get a top-notch drug buzz going; Love you so much it makes me sick = infatuated with his GF / can't stop this drug addiction it's too good/hard; Beat me out of me = how do I get over this girl/this drug?; she keeps it pumping straight to my heart = I can't stop loving on her / keep the veins loaded with drug baby. ... Maybe even there's duality of meaning where he loved how this girl he was infatuated with loved the drug addiction the exact same way he did?
  • Laure from GrasseThis song is what it says it is, it’s about a girl that his friend and he’s in love with her, she goes over and plays twister with him and talks with him.
  • Joseph from New YorkI would have to agree with Eddie that this song is obviously about Kurts heroin use, but I would change just one thing, I think this song is a story. I think he invited a girl over, possibly his dealer, tp do heroin, they twisted up but Kurt overdid it and began seizing and throwing up. On the floor his friend was beating his chest, shaking him trying to get him to wake up, attempting CPR but only pumping the heroin through his body.
  • Eddie from Queens Nyc1st off, musicians rarely admit to there songs being about drugs. As I agree there are a lot off songs people equate to drugs when there not about drugs this one couldn't be more clear every line equates to heroin use twist the belt around your arm overdo it have a fit o.d ing. Love you so much it makes me sick. Dope sick. Beat me out off me how much you change once you start shooting she keeps it pumping. His dealer. Last line come on over and shoot the s--t ....I mean really pick a different song to argue about.
  • Jc Roc Smooth from Baltimore Md "Aneurysm" is about Kurt Cobain's first girlfriend... he was obsessed with her when she was with him he would get anxiety and nauseous. Same girl that wore teen spirit deodorant that inspired "Smells Like Teen Spirit". This song had zero to do with any drug.
  • Nick from Fresh Meadows, Nyguys guys guys aneurysm is not about heroin, defenitley not about crystal meth, he didnt use crystal, the song is obviously about a girl that always busted his and gave him an aneurysm, im sure every guy on this site has made a song like that about a girl that made them sick....every guy knows how it is, his music was not all about heroin, but like someone said before, he might use words that have nothing to do with being high, so it was like a secret almost. and might i add some of these songs that were are discussing about mixed messages, are some or if the best nirvana songs out, examp. Drain You, he says " it is now my duty to completely drain you.......i TRAVEL THRU A TUBE AND IM IN UR AFFECTION", In anuerysm hes just really tight about his girl, come on over and do the twist, hehe cocaine u said , or crystal.. yeah right come on over and do the twist means i love u so much but when u get here my feelings take a twist... over do it and have a sorry if u do too much heroin u wont have a fit, then he says beat me out of me.....she keeps it pumping straight in my heart....ive had fights like this with my girlfriends
  • Norad from Eastern Shore, Mdthis is my take: Tobi (or whoever the girl might be) comes over and they play records. Kurt notices her really thrashin' around like punkers do. To the point of havin' a fit. This intrigues him to the point of nausea...He could be in love. Sometimes when she comes over they just talk, other times they shoot dope. Kurt likes her because she motivates him to come out of his shell more. He is content because she is really diggin' him. Infact , it's pumpin' through him keepin' him motivated and music/sex/drugs/etc.... (at least for another year or so).
  • Gember Dinarte from Washington, Dctravis are you f--king serious why out of all the songs he wrote why would the song "Aneurysm" be about coke. It's stupid.
  • Travis from Lehi, UtCome on, guys. This song is clearly about Coca-Cola. You "twist" off the top. He "loved it so much it made him sick" if he didn't drink it everyday. After drinking it he would take his gun outside and "shoot s**t" while buzzing on caffeine. Then he would go inside and masturbate. I don't see how anyone can interpret this song any differently.
  • Aaron from Detroit, MiI have looked at half a dozen Nirvana songs on this site, and every single one of them had commenters INSISTING that each song was DEFINITELY about heroin/addiction. Yes, Kurt was a well-documented drug addict. Yes, it's safe to assume that he wrote some songs about his addiction. In fact, he (somewhat) frequently used addiction as a metaphor for relationships and other things.

    But not every single song HAS to be about drugs. And just because you think it's about heroin, that doesn't mean that it should be listed as a fact, when the artist has specifically stated otherwise. To me it seems even disrespectful to write off every song he wrote as "Oh that's about him being a junkie". There was much more to the man than being some smack head.

    That would be like me saying every Nickleback song should have "This song is complete and utter garbage" listed as a fact because I think it's true.
  • Boddah from Sydney, Australiaregistered to post this. firstly, Mike, Worcecester, yes Aneurysm from LTSO was easily the best version i have seen.
    I've always believed the song to be about Heroin, even though he didn't admit it because people always harped on about his drug habit, and he didn't want people constantly on his back about it. It comes down to the fact that every line in the song can be directly related to heroin useage.
  • Johnny from Pittsburgh, Paok, i signed up just to post on this song. yes, it is about toby vail, no, it's not about heroin or meth and yes he did write it before he dated her. he was so nervous around her he got sick and would throw up. also on a lyric, to "shoot the s--t" is a slang phrase to converse with someone and to just bulls--t, not to shoot heroin or as another term for meth. also on a side note it is through toby vail that he met kathleen hannah who spray painted on a wall "kurt smells like teen spirit", meaning the deodorant, although kurt had never heard of that brand he thought she meant teenage spirit.
  • Juan from Riverside, CaTHE SONG IS ABOUT METH!!!
    come on over and do the twist
    you twist the pipe when you smoke meth
    love you so much it makes me sick
    beeing strung out, dope sick
    come on over and shot the sh*t
    s--t is an other word for meth and you can also shot it up....
  • Chris from Pensacola, FlI think "over do it and have a fit" is about overdosing heroin, and "Love you so much it makes me sick" is about him loving heroin so much,and he wants to stop but cant, so he is sick of it.And like everyone else said,"beat me out of me"its a drug reference.
    Anyways no matter what nirvana is the best and even if he did some bad things Kurts with god now...RIP Kurt
  • Garrett from Orland, CaI hate to be the one to tell you this but you are all wrong
    the song is actually a love song written about Tobi Vail (his "girlfriend" prior to meeting courtney. He wrote the song hoping that it could win her back
    obviously it didnt
    The line ,"Love you so much it makes me sick" refers to him actually throwing up from being so nervous around her
  • Chris from Brooklyn, Nyits about sex with tobi vai, the line "Beat me out of Me" is referring to her giving him a handjob. Very good song.
  • Jim from Butthole, Laosim probably wrong but i think of the lyrics like a description of his suicide but sounds like someone helped him with it. "come on over do the twist" (unscrewing heroine bottle) "over do it and have a fit" (overdosing heroine sesuire?) "beat me out of me" (shotgun) i dont know it just reminds me, probably not though, greatest band ever Rip Kurt, also one of my favorite songs
  • Angelina from La Jolla, CaUpon reading all previous comments the only thing I can add is an acknowledgement to Cobain's brilliant use of double entendre in this and many other Nirvana lyrics.
  • Tyler from Toronto, Canadai agree with mike in Worcecester. Also, i think it might be about both, like kurt said on Live Tonight sold Out, i dont like lyrics that put the meaning right in peoples faces.
    - Ed, Chodania, FL

    Kurt Cobain is a liar, he says lots of things and doesnt mean them.
    Mr.Nirvana ^^
  • Mick from New York, NyThis song is about heroin. "beat me out of me" is term for shooting up
  • X.grudge Is Dead.x from New City, NyActually it isnt about the breakup.
    According to Heavier Than Heaven [a biography of Kurt Cobain], he wrote it before they started going out because he loved her so much he threw up thinking about her.
  • Ed from Chodania, Fli agree with mike in Worcecester. Also, i think it might be about both, like kurt said on Live Tonight sold Out, i dont like lyrics that put the meaning right in peoples faces.
  • Jon from Oakridge, OrDrugs or Women, this songs awesome.
  • Marko from Novi Sad, SerbiaWhen i listen to Aneurysm,i think about a girl i love.She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart.
  • David from Suburbia, IlWhether this song was written before Kurt tried heroin is actually a matter of debate, not of fact. From what I understand he first used it at age 20, which is concurrent with time frame this song was believed to be written at. It could be written about Tobi Vail, or heroin, or both. No one will ever know for a FACT. All I'm pointing out is that EVERY line of the song is easily associated with heroin usage.
  • Mike from Worcecester, EnglandThe best version is on the Nirvana VHS Home Video called 'Live Tonight sold Out'
  • Tom from Wapakoneta, OhThis song was written before Kurt had even tried heroin, so that theory is like an ice cube; it is solid for a while but it will eventually melt. Which it just did.
  • Kurt from Downers Grove, IlI think Dave's theory that the song about heroin is solid. Perhaps that should be listed as a songfact, not a comment.
  • David from Suburbia, IlI'm pretty sure this song is about Kurt's struggle with Heroin. Heroin usage usually causes disassocation ("beat me out of me") and vommiting ("love you so much it makes me sick"). Also, "overdo it and have a fit" is an obvious reference to overdosing. Aneurysms are caused by a weakening of a blood vessel's cell wall, which can be associated with IV needle use ("shoot the s**t")
  • Nick from Plainfield, IlThe best live song on the Muddy Banks of Wishkah CD.
  • Jason from Dover, PaMy favirite song of all time
  • Ryan from Glasgow, Scotlandamazing of my fav nirvana songs
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