Déjà Vu

Album: Relapse (2009)
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  • DMC, we have a mid-thirties male found down, unresponsive
    Possible overdose, substance unknown
    Pulse is 60 and thready, respiration's eight
    He's intubated and we're bagging him now
    Uh, BP 90 over palp, patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic
    Has aspirated, uh, GSC is 3
    Will update en route, ETA ten minutes

    As I fall deeper into a manic state
    I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait
    Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
    I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate
    Start off with the NyQuil, like, I think I'll just have a taste
    Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate
    To a harder prescription drug called Valium, like, yeah that's great
    I go to just take one and I end up like having eight
    Now I need something in my stomach 'cause I haven't ate
    Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak
    And you'd think that with all I have at stake
    Look at my daughter's face
    "Mommy, something is wrong with dad I think
    He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me
    Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me
    And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos
    And he just fell asleep in his car eating 3 Musketeers in the rear seat"

    Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
    Feels like I been down this road before
    So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
    As soon as I go home and close the door
    Kinda feels like déjà vu
    I wanna get away from this place, I do
    But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know that's a lie
    'Cause I don't and why, I just don't know

    "Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?"
    That's the devil in my ear, I've been sober a fuckin' year
    And that fucker still talks to me, he's all I can fucking hear
    "Marshall, come on, we'll watch the game
    It's the Cowboys and Buccaneers"
    And maybe if I just drink half, I'll be half-buzzed
    For half of the time, who's the mastermind behind that little line?
    With that kind of rationale, man, I got half a mind
    To have another half a glass of wine, sounds asinine
    Yeah, I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol
    Ouch, look out for the wall, aim for the couch, I'm 'bout to fall
    I miss the couch and down I go, lookin' like a bouncy ball
    Shit must've knocked me out 'cause I ain't feel the ground at all
    Wow, what the fuck happened last night? Where am I?
    Man, fuck, am I hungover, and goddamn, I
    Got a headache, shit, half a Vicodin, why can't I?
    All systems ready for take off, please stand by

    Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
    Feels like I been down this road before
    So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
    As soon as I go home and close the door
    Kinda feels like déjà vu
    I wanna get away from this place, I do
    But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know that's a lie
    'Cause I don't and why, I just don't know

    So I take a Vicodin, splash, it hits my stomach, then "Ahhh"
    Couple of weeks go by, it ain't even like I'm gettin' high
    Now I need it just not to feel sick, yeah, I'm gettin' by
    Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die
    Oh yeah, there's an excuse; you lose Proof so you use
    There's new rules, it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through
    It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self-inducin' a snooze
    What else is new? Fuck it, what would Elvis do in your shoes?
    Now here I am three months later, full-blown relapse
    "Just get high until the kids get home from school, homes, relax"
    And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac
    I need these pills to be able to sleep, so I take three naps
    Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see
    That's an Ambien each nap, how many Valium? Three?
    And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep
    Okay, so now ya see the reason how come he
    Has taken four years to just put out an album, B
    See, me and you, we almost had the same outcome, Heath
    'Cause that Christmas, you know the whole pneumonia thing?
    It was bologna, was it the methadone, ya think?
    Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos?
    Your VCR tape cases, with your Ambien CR
    Great places to hide 'em, ain't it? So you can lie to Hailie
    I'm going beddy-bye, Whitney, baby; good night, Alaina!
    Go in the room and shut the bedroom door
    And wake up in an ambulance
    They said they found me on the bathroom floor, damn

    Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
    Feels like I been down this road before
    So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
    As soon as I go home and close the door
    Kinda feels like déjà vu
    I wanna get away from this place, I do
    But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know that's a lie
    'Cause I don't and why, I just don't know Writer/s: Andre Young, Dawaun Parker, Mark Batson, Marshall Mathers, Mike Elizondo, Sean Cruse, Trevor Lawrence Jr.
    Publisher: Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
    Lyrics licensed and provided by LyricFind

Comments: 2

  • Michael from Deridder, La@Saltine: yeah, he was in a deep enough hole in life, and Proof's death only dug him deeper...that part and the part where E is imitating Hailie Jade gets to me real hard..... right in the heart...
    the other part of Relapse that sounds like a continous part to this song is the song that's next on the album "Beautiful." Those two raps tie together PERFECTLY.

    "Mommy, something is wrong with Dad, I think,
    He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me,
    Won't shave his beard again, and he pretends he doesn't hear me,
    And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos, and he just
    Fell asleep in his car eating 3 Musketeers in the rear seat..."
    -The part where E sounds like a worried Hailie Jade in the first verse of "Deja Vu"
  • Saltine from Htown, TxGreat song of Eminem's, its great that he finally got through that hard part in his life.
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